This Is It…

“THIS IS IT” I was told at 18yo when I asked if there is more to life…. My life felt mundane, unsteady and depressing to me even though I was an accomplished lyrical dancer.

It meant nothing to me. All I felt was pressure to BE MORE and DO MORE. My intuition argued against what I have been told. I refused to believe that there wasn’t more. I was willing to look for MY VERSION of MORE everywhere even if it meant with the wrong peoples, at times and if it meant moving over 5 thousands miles AWAY from my home . Back then I found my calm moments in the movement ONLY. I was trying to dance my way out of the way I felt many times only to feel the same shortly after. Fast forward over a decade later it was a love AT FIRST BREATH when I tasted and felt my full drop into inner self. It wasn’t that I wasn’t breathing consciously during dancing. What I was lacking was WHO I GIFTED the practice to! Dance is a performance and perfection based platform. Unlike YOGA, you are receiving evaluation, seeking approval and ovation from your audience which can be exhausting and debilitating to your mental health🙏🏻 I found my fullest calm in STILLNESS during edgy still Yoga poses but it TOOK A LONG TIME to get there, I struggled MANY times

The LOVE ❤️ for the practice wasn’t enough as it didn’t guarantee inner calm if we don’t expose ourselves to CONTINUOUS moments of stillness. It took perseverance and vulnerability on a whole new level, it took devotion and discipline to not want to give up to still my hungry mind from stimulation and distractions. I KNOW YOU CAN DO IT TOO!